Friday, July 31, 2009

~Economic MidTerm~

haiz,tmr is our dear econ 2nd midterm le..i should be studying rite now..but i can't concentrate~T^T~going mad because of the econs..i'm really not good in it although i'm suppose to be pro in this..disaster..damn~!argh..no mood le..
stress here ,wanna go home..but i noe this is only me freak out..can't get my mind into my study..haiz,no matter what..suddenly felt so lonely..argh~!bad mood~!must do something to cheer myself up~!!damn exam~!leave me alone~!
by the way, why guys always act so stubborn in some sort of matters?JW,i really wanna reject your feelings for me,but i really don't know how to express it..maybe we could just get ourself some time..try to figure it out..maybe you don't really realized,but i think the [love] you always mentioned..not really real..maybe it's just an illusion..
argh..today one word can express my feelings~!烦~!gosh~go sleep=3=

..damn tiring..

It's now 2.30am..just got back from yamcha..can't get myself into bed..so, surfing the web flanerie..what to do, really can't get into sleep..started to feel tired being in Kampar here..don't know why,just sort of feelings..and after signing up here for so long,i wrote my first blog here..
it really took a long time for me to suits in Kampar, thinking many..missing all my friends..tomoyo,chloe,carol,shin,hui,and lily..miss my home and miss everything everything i used to have..maybe i should just let it go..sometimes thing will never change no matter how hard we try and what we are able to do is just to accept it as it is..
tried so hard not to think so much,but sometimes it just came out..sometimes really hard to imagine how i survived here..it's almost three months i'm in UTAR Kampar..3 months..still learning + don't know how to comunicate with others..maybe this would be the first thing i need to work on..
by the way,damn complicated right now..got my quantitative techniques paper today,for my midterm 1..hooray,i got less than 10==+it's not a good scoring that could be celebrates though..
maybe work harder could help me up but..how~?
maybe i should start now,for my dear damn econ paper for midterm2..and yet,i hate exams~!exams~!please leave me alone~!and yet there's still marketing project to rush..it's not a simple job and it really takes more time than i thought..
kissy a.k.a Rocky,gambatte~!make yourself usefull~!yosh~>@<~